A year on and we have another worlds mental health day. Today I feel incredibly lucky to still be alive. Last year I attempted to take my own life and could not face another day the way I was feeling. No amount of medication was making me feel better. Today is a reflection of how … Continue reading

How To Ask For Help

Asking for help or reaching out to people can seem so daunting. I admit it was the hardest thing for me to do. I have touched on this in a previous post, it was a friend who came to me with NHS print outs for depression and bipolar. She had been worried about me for … Continue reading How To Ask For Help

Relationships vs Mental Health

I have many friends who have mental health and many friends who do not. Some of those friendships are stronger than others, but I often wonder what it is like not to have mental health? To wake up and have this horrible feeling that you cannot bring yourself to leave bed, brush your teeth or … Continue reading Relationships vs Mental Health

Track and unpack

I am back writing, not that I haven't wanted too but that I just couldn't put pen to paper. So I guess I should fill my blog in on a little update. Lets start with work talk now and an update is I have given it up. I felt unsupported in my role and pressured … Continue reading Track and unpack

Borderline Personality Disorder

So the professionals say I have borderline personality disorder, which in a way explains my behaviours and manic spells. Along with this I have anxiety and depression so a bad episode can mean being bed bound for days sometimes longer. Some like having a diagnoses as it gives clarity as to why you are feeling … Continue reading Borderline Personality Disorder

Anxiety in all its glory

noun1.a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome."he felt a surge of anxiety"synonyms:worry, concern, apprehension, apprehensiveness, consternation, uneasiness, unease, fearfulness, fear, disquiet, disquietude,  perturbation, fretfulness, agitation, angst, nervousness, nerves, edginess, tension, tenseness, stress, misgiving, trepidation, foreboding, suspense; More2.strong desire or concern to do something or for something to happen."the housekeeper's … Continue reading Anxiety in all its glory

Hitting a home run

Recently I have been hitting home runs in terms of how I have been feeling. I have been doing so well. However today I have had to be gentle with myself. I need to remind myself sometimes it is okay to have a bad day. To feel so exhausted you can't pick yourself up from … Continue reading Hitting a home run